Sunday, 25 October 2015

As I said...

... things can change so quickly. I lost my love to manic depression. Runs in his family. He has turned against me and wants nothing to do with me. Outlooks are bleak and I don't think he will get help and come back to me. It feels so unreal, absurd and confusing.
The jobsituation has changed too. I still have my job but a new CEO has been brought in and my working conditions and opportunities for the future are now much different. My co-worker is not being nice to me.

Life goes up and down. I really did cherish what I had when I had it. At least I got that one year with my love and I am still thankful that I got that job after all those months without.

It is not all bad news though. In April this year I bought a lovely little allotment on the outskirts of Copenhagen. It is more like a small summerhouse really, with electricity, running water, toilet etc. There is a bedroom and kitchen so many times during the summer I have stayed there for some days. My sanctuary. A place of peace and quiet in an increasingly mad world. As I live in a flat on the 3rd floor it is heavenly to be able to go there and step out on my own lawn and sit with my coffee, listening to the silence and the birds. Being able to wear sandals without worrying about anyone seing the compression stocking and the toecap. I am already looking forward to spring and summer so I can go there again. It is six months away though.

I am sorry it's been so long. I haven't had so much to write about, at least not reg. Lymphedema. My leg is the same, big. Earlier this year I got two new JoviPaks to use at night. They do a good job and my leg is soft when I wake in the morning but it hasn't really made my leg any smaller. Oh well, at least it keeps the tissue from growing hard etc. I had a MLD a few weeks ago and my therapist was impressed, she thought my leg looked and felt very well managed. I am seeing my fitter soon, maybe he has some new ideas reg. nightgarment.